a happy day today.
Wayne and Mandy's wedding!!!

congratulations!!!

maybe post some pics when i have some later on. haha. : )

and now im tiredddd.

a happy girl is a pretty girl.

I was looking back at some facebook pictures that other people tagged me in it.
I don't think I was particularly different than what I look like now.
Maybe the hair is a bit more curly, but then again I would remember at that point I thought "man my hair is terrible!! gotta do something about it!!"
I guess it's often too easy to not be satisfied about yourself. Liker right now, when my hair is short, I want it long. When my hair is straight, I want it curly. When it's curly, I would want it straight. = = """ When it's black, I want it colored (though I must admit I do enjoy my very black hair right now)

Today I was going to buy moisturizer for my face. I went in with confidence that my skin isn't too bad. But after the sales talked to me, she's like oh you need this for this. You see.. your face is like this. And like.. you know this.. you need to do this. I left that store feeling like "AHH. are things really that wrong with my face?"

As I just looked into the mirror in my bathroom, the thought of "a happy girl is a pretty girl" came and I saw a tired girl. Tired not because I'm physically tired, but tired because I have a lot on my mind, and it absolutely and completely translate on my face.
Actually, I seriously don't think my skin is THAT bad. All i need is some good moisturizer to keep me going and a better diet (water, fruits, and veggies). But I think because I lack the light that I have on my face that I see in my facebook pictures, I feel I dont look pretty. Plus when people keep telling me something is wrong with my face, i'm bound to feel errrrr. That's why i hate going to Chinese cosmetics counter! They will just do ANYTHING to make you buy something!!!

Anyway. A happy girl is a pretty girl.
Maybe that's why brides always look so pretty on their wedding day!! Other than professional make-up, I think it's because they're really happy!

ok.
better diet!
Get good decent skincare just because I need to use it, not because I need to fix something!
Be delighted. Don't have a heavy-heart. Be happy! Be joyful!

RAWRRRR!

You bought me two pots of flower long time ago.
one was mini-rose and the other.. i forgot the name.

I knew at the start roses are delicate and very hard to take care of and the other pot is a survivor -- you dont need to pay much attention to it.
But i adored the roses because they were beautiful and cute, so i bought it anyways.
The other pot... it was alright. It's my favorite color yellow and it looked nice, so i bought it too.

Eventually... they both started to wither. I fed them both water. I put them both under the sun. I know.. i didn't do much of the other stuff like feed them nutrients or change their soil and pots for them.
I just kept feeding them water and putting them under the sun, hoping something would change.
Eventually... another one or two mini rose came out but soon.... the whole plant just died.. so i threw it away.

The pot of yellow flower is still here today. She may have some dried out flowers, some brown leaves, and the flowers are not as bright yellow as before... but i can tell... she's fighting for her life to keep growing. It's a survivor! It's a fighter! Everytime I feel like giving up.. i look at the pot of yellow flower and i will tell myself... "She's still fighting for her life... I shouldn't give up either"

Thank you ... pot of yellow flower. You are a good motivation and reminder.
Let's keep fighting and walking.