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Thursday, 03 May 2012

  • 我們這一家

    今天早上突然發覺,原來跟爸爸媽媽的關係已經在演變當中。感覺好像要從新學習如何做一個好女兒。原來當二人成為一體以後,跟父母的分離真的不單只離開了房子那麽簡單。我想父母跟我都正在接受大家的關係已經不同了,而這個改變其實是難受的。 至少,對我來説,我不好受。

    求天父幫助我們一家經過這個改變之後,更加懂得用不同的方式去愛護大家。

Monday, 09 April 2012

  • Luke 13: 1-9

    Repent or Perish
     1 Now there were some present at that time who told Jesus about the Galileans whose blood Pilate had mixed with their sacrifices. 2 Jesus answered, “Do you think that these Galileans were worse sinners than all the other Galileans because they suffered this way? 3 I tell you, no! But unless you repent, you too will all perish. 4 Or those eighteen who died when the tower in Siloam fell on them—do you think they were more guilty than all the others living in Jerusalem? 5 I tell you, no! But unless you repent, you too will all perish.”

     6 Then he told this parable: “A man had a fig tree growing in his vineyard, and he went to look for fruit on it but did not find any. 7 So he said to the man who took care of the vineyard, ‘For three years now I’ve been coming to look for fruit on this fig tree and haven’t found any. Cut it down! Why should it use up the soil?’

       8 “‘Sir,’ the man replied, ‘leave it alone for one more year, and I’ll dig around it and fertilize it. 9 If it bears fruit next year, fine! If not, then cut it down.’”

     

    As I was reading through this Scrpiture, I asked, "Why the heck did Jesus give a parable out of the middle of no where? What is he trying to say?"
    After a little bit of pondering, I felt like something clicked. I suddenly realized, "wow, Jesus... YOU ARE SO GOOD TO US!!!"
    I imagine the vineyard owner was the Lord, and after waiting for 3 years, he still does not see any fruit on the tree. So out of his wrath, he said "Cut it down! Why should it use up the soil?". But Jesus, the man who took care of the vineyard said to the owner, "Sir, leave it alone for one more year, and I'll dig around it and fertilize it. If it bears fruit next year, fine! If not, then cut it down."

    Jesus is always pleading for us, always asking the Father to give us more time, another chance to repent. Jesus is willing to dig around us, fertilize us, trying to move us to grow and bear fruit. However, it really is up to the tree whether or not he/she wants to repent or perish.

    Thank you Jesus for never giving up on us!

    Now the question is, are we willing to move with the hand of God to repent, turn our lives around, and bear fruit for the vineyard owner?
    time IS running out....

Wednesday, 14 March 2012

  • Lately, I have been feeling that human beings are just so stubborn and stuck in their own ways that we are beyond saving.
    I guess deep down I do want to do something about it but then I feel powerless to do anything. I just can't change people.

    I ask for more strength, so that I can do what it is that I have to do.
    I ask for mercy, and grace, and compassion, and love, and etc. etc. etc.
    I ask for God to increase my ability.

    But in the end, God told me it's not about improving anything or become better at something.
    As a matter of fact, to become less is to become greater. To become less is to improve. To become less is better.

    I received from the Lord that I need to give thanks for my limitation.
    GIVE THANKS because limitation is the very thing that leads us to GRACE.

    So give thanks for your limitation, because that is the very place where God can show you who HE is.

     

Friday, 09 March 2012

  • We live in an instant-gratification culture. We have generally come to expect immediate returns on our investments of time and resources. It is not surprising that we, as members of an instant-gratification culture, tend to become impatient with any process of development that requires of us more than a limited involvement of our time and energies. Often our spiritual quest becomes a search for the right technique, the proper method, the perfect program that can immediately deliver the desired results of spiritual maturity and wholeness. We do not expect to put an infant into its crib at night and in the morning find a child, an adolescent or yet an adult. We expect that infant to grow into maturity according to the processes that God has ordained for physical growth to wholeness. The same thing is true of our spiritual life.

    For a while we may live on a plateau of life and relationship with God. Then one of those moments comes in which we experience a growth spurt and find ourselves on a new level of life and relationship with God. We experience God in a new and different way. But if we mistake such a growth spurt for all these is in spirituality, then we are not prepared for the long haul toward spiritual wholeness.

    What we don't realize is that often a period of apparent spiritual stagnation, a time in which we don't feel as if we are going anywhere, a phase of life in which our relationship with God seems weak or nonexistent, the time of dryness, of darkness -- what the mothers and fathers of the church speak of as the desert experience -- is filled with nurturing down below the surface that we never see. To give us the spiritual gift we desire, God may have to begin far back in our spirit, in regions unknown to us, and do much work that we can be aware of only in the results. This hidden work of God is a nurturing that prepares us for what appears to be a quantum leap forward. What we see as the quantum leap may actually be only the smallest part of what has been going on in a long, steady process of grace, working far beyond our knowing and understanding, to bring us to that point where we are ready for God to move us into a new level of spiritual awareness and a new depth of wholeness in relationship with God in Christ. There simply is no instantaneous event of putting your quarter in the slot and seeing spiritual formation drop down where you can reach it, whole and complete.

    We fail to realize that the process of spiritual shaping is a primal reality of human existence. EVERYONE is in a process of spiritual formation! We are being shaped into either the wholeness of the image of Christ or a horribly destructive caricature of that image -- destructive not only to ourselves but also to others, for we inflict our brokenness upon them. We become either agents of God's healing and liberating grace or carriers of the sickness of the world. Each of us at each moment is progressing to the one state or the other. Spiritual formation is not an option!

    Excerpt from Invitation to a Journey by M. Robert Mulholland Jr.

Sunday, 04 March 2012

  • God really provides.

    He provides me great friends, who I can hot pot all night with and share our lives with each other, good and bad.
    He provides me with a makeup artist and a hair stylist on the first phone call i make with a very decent price. At first I was worried there would be no options, but God has shown me again how he takes care of my wedding and I focus on Him.

    One thing to remind myself is to be fair and righteous in all my decisions and not to bargain to a point where i take advantage of someone else for my own gain.

    it's true. God is good. : )

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